Black and white....why is it when you see something on paper, in black and white, it hits you this is real? Exactly how I am feeling, as this weekend I received Callie's paperwork confirming her upcoming trip to California which is for sure the 1st week of January. Even though, we have been doing this for 8 years now, it never gets easier. Sometimes I think, well No - am 100% positive I have more anxiety now about these trips then I did 8 years ago. Old age? Probably! LOL! And knowing what to expect and then there is the worry of the unknown.
January she will for sure have her heart cath to see exactly where she stands. And she has a surgery date schedule in case she needs it. I tried to say, " Can we just schedule the cath and then worry about surgery if she needs it?" But, they wanted her to have a surgery date already in place :-/ Which I totally understand why but hate seeing those words on paper. As would anyone.....not easy.
Callie does need her next stage of surgery. When will that be, only God knows - could be January, could be 6 mths from then or a year from then. I just want a good cath report and to hear she is on her way to having her next stage at some point in the future, I really do not want her to have a surgery in January but that we will just have to wait and see. I was reminded today in Church today, we cannot control what life throws out us - while I know this. I needed the reminder, all I can do is remain strong, face it head on and put my hope in God. It's a struggle for sure because I want to control it all but the truth is, I can't control any of it - its all in his hands. I have to remind myself of this everyday, sometimes every hour and the moment I send my child into that operating room, I have to remind myself of that every second and pray like crazy.
Miss Priss is doing simply wonderful, so very grateful! She had her 8th Birthday in September and is loving school. She cannot wait for Halloween so she can dress up :-)
Sunday, October 4, 2015
Thursday, July 2, 2015
It has been a while since I have posted, I hope to start posting more regularly again. Callie is doing awesome, I have no complaints! Callie finished up 1st grade in May and is enjoying her summer. She is in the pool every chance she gets :-) She is looking forward to school starting back in August, she misses her friends very much! Callie recently started tumbling and loves it! It is really good for her and pushes her to build her endurance, which needs! It is tough for her sometimes, but she pushes on.
So, health wise how is Callie? I can honestly say, probably at her best :-) Her heart is stable and she will see her cardiologist at the end of July. From there I will be scheduling her heart catheterization to go to California for Jan. 2016 which is exactly 2 years out from her Glenn procedure. Dr. Hanley wanted her to have a cath 2 years out to see where she stands. Callie next surgery would be her Fontan, 2 years ago when she had her Glenn, she wasn't a candidate for the Fontan.....but we are praying with time she will become one just like she did with the Glenn. Onto her next battle, the vomiting syndrome.....we seem to have a good handle on that. Callie's last episode was back in January, since then we have been able to get it under control with her meds and a very strict lifestyle. It is tough but it beats watching your child vomit for a week straight. Never take for granted just being able to pick up and go out of town or staying out late for a special event with your child. Callie cannot do things like that and it really sucks at times, she has to be in bed before 8pm, going out of town is a big stressor for her, especially if we all aren't together as a family. Just little things you would not think about are a big deal for her. But, the good news it one day she should outgrow it! I just remind myself this is only temporary ;-)
When you think about 2 years, it seems like a long time but living it, it is like a snap of the fingers! If that makes sense....lol! I say this because this coming Jan. is 2 years since Callie's Glenn, her 9th heart surgery and we will head to California once again. I just can't believe it has been 2 yrs. and once again we will be facing all this all over again. Yes, there is never a day that goes by that I do not worry about her, I am constantly worried. But, being in California really puts it all in your face. Someone, commented to me the other day, that I deserve praise for all we have been through, all the traveling for her surgeries, etc. And this is coming from someone who has a child with CHD and other health complications. Here is how I see it, each and everyone of us has our "normal" or crazy life we live, however, you want to see it ;-) For us, being prepared to travel at a blink of an eye, is our normal/crazy life, I do not even think twice about it anymore... we have adjusted over the past years and it is a journey that God has put us on and there is a reason, it might be tough at times and I always wish that Callie didn't have to go through what she goes through but none of us were promised a life without pain and heartache. But God is with us and he is faithful and good!
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Well it has been quite some time since I have updated on here. I can't believe how fast time seems to slip away....Since my last update in February, Callie started 1st grade in August, growing up way too fast!
Then she welcomed her sweet baby cousin, Skylar. Callie loves her more than words describe!
September 4, 2014
My baby turned 7!!! She had a frozen B-day Party with Elsa and Ponies!!
My baby turned 7!!! She had a frozen B-day Party with Elsa and Ponies!!
Multiple Check ups during the year, with Dr. Lacey, Callie's cardiologist who love and adore!
Of course, Callie has to act silly during pictures;-)
Callie is doing very well from a heart standpoint, she is stable and no major changes have occurred in this past year. We are hoping to make it to Jan 2016 and at that point she will need a check up in California.
We tried visiting Santa for a Christmas pic, but this was the only pic we achieved, while visiting Santa. Callie has always been afraid of him and we have yet to get a pic with her sitting with him. Maybe when she is 18, we will finally get that pic! LOL!!!
August, she started 1st grade and has been doing just marvelous. I am so proud at how well she is doing despite all the challenges she has faced.
But, as frustrating as it is, we are thankful for how healthy and stable she is. God has blessed us with countless blessings this past year, his love is awesome! Difficult days, I pray for him to remind me that his plans are perfect, they may not be the plans I have for myself but if I just trust him and follow him, he will provide the best for my family and I.
Thanks for checking in and I hope to be better about updating the blog this year :-)
Saturday, February 22, 2014
Exactly 1 month ago this was how we were looking at our sweet girl, just hours after her 9th heart surgery.
And this is my view today, crazy hair and all :-)
Callie is doing awesome, her appetite is picking up and soon she will be returning back to school. Looking back on the past month, everything happened so fast and sometimes I think it is better that way. Your mind doesn't have time to go over all the "what if's" of all what surrounds raising a child with CHD. While Callie will be up for another surgery in about 2 yrs. we don't worry about the future. She is healthy and thriving now, which is what ultimately matters!! Having Callie has taught me a whole different way at looking at life and what is most important. We live in the now because nothing is promised in the future. I look at her and am in amazement at her life and what a blessing she is. Callie is my one forever reminder of God's constant provision in her life and ours. Knowing his plan for her is greater than we can ever dream.
Friday, January 31, 2014
Haven't had much time to update, everything just seemed to happen in a blink of an eye this go around! Callie was discharged on Wednesday morning, exactly 1 week after her 9th heart surgery. So, we headed home early Thursday morning.
It seems like just yesterday we were flying out there and now we are already home. We are so thankful for her smooth and speedy recovery. Thank you to everyone who supported us and prayed for our little girl....she is such a miracle and we are blessed to be her Mom & Dad.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Here is Callie and 1 of her nurses from the CVICU, this was the 1st time Callie had been out of the bed since her surgery....they were showing off their tattoos. Callie has been giving them to all her nurses, including Mommy and Daddy! Today, we were able to get Callie to the playroom in the afternoon and evening so tonight she is pretty tired. Tomorrow we hope to get her over to the school in the hospital here just to keep her active and learning as much as she can ;-)
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Think this picture says it all!
Callie is doing awesome to be just 3 days post op. The doctors are so pleased with her recovery especially since she got a late start off the ventilator compared to most glenn patients. She spent a whole extra day on the ventilator rather than getting off in a matter of hours like most patients. Callie's Glenn procedure was a very unique procedure it was not performed the conventional way and we are so thankful for surgeon who was able to successfully perform this surgery despite Callie's complex little heart. Dr. Hanley will never know how thankful we are for him and what a special place he holds in our hearts.
Callie had some lines removed today and is back on all her medication from home, she has started back on her night feeds and she is only wearing oxygen here and there in hopes to help her heal faster. The oxygen isn't a requirement but the doctors believe that in glenn patients it help their recovery if they wear it as their healing. So, we try our best to keep it on her even though she hate it :-/ Callie still has her chest tubes and we are praying that they will stop draining so she can get those out ASAP. Her blood pressure is high right now so we are working to get that under control. So, the 2 main prayer requests are for her blood pressure issue to resolve and the chest tube drainage to dramatically slow down. At this point those are really the only things keeping her from being discharge.
I amazed when I look at her and just how resilient she is, the child seems to rock surgeries like a champ! She has more strength and determination than really anybody I know. I am thankful the Lord has allowed me to be a Mommy to such a special little girl. Again, thank you for the continued prayers, for all the financial contributions it has helped us out in ways that you can only imagine.
Also, we finally got a room in the Ronald McDonald House as of yesterday. Praise the Lord! It feel like we would never get in...this is a huge blessing.
I know I haven't been on top of my updates but I am trying. Callie has been very demanding this go around and she is wearing me out ;-)